Never Again

Well, it's over. My relationship is over. To be honest, I've never felt so much better about myself. The torment and struggle that I have felt in the last week has caused a lot of mental pain that I could've done without. It's a shame when you feel so strong about someone, only for them to throw it back at you, or to act in that certain manner. I honestly couldn't care less anymore. I'm a free person now, and it feels like bliss. I can go back to being me, without a constant struggle to find an equalibrium between feeling like I'm in a battle with my emotions and trying to get things off my mind. Trying to seperate fact from fiction.

Well, what I though was fact was fiction, dispite covering it up, kidding myself that everything was going to be okay, that everything's fine. Now I can actually take a breath of fresh air. I can actually focus on what matters. All I care about now is getting into collage and the ones who are closest to me, because I know they'll always be there, no matter what happens. I have things to look forward to now. I can go out and not let drink cause me mental upsets, and I can talk with clarity, as well as think with clarity as well. Life just rolls on, and I can't wait.

Well, I love you so much, but do me a favour baby, don't reply, because I can dish it out, but I can't take it.

It Just Twists...

I have no certaincy on anything lately, and it's slightly worrying. To be honest, it's scaring the life out of me. When you love someone and they're not okay, it's natural to pursue what's going on in their head, so you can help them, but what if? What if even that thing is something they can't describe themselves? That they feel so undermined by such unknown causes, that they feel they can't even talk about it. Not even to the ones they love.

"I've watched you."

It causes tears in your soul, because you don't know how to act, how to persist, how to chase after them and reassure them. It causes me paranoia and leaves me in a dead end, with nowhere to go. It causes me breakdowns. It causes me stress. There's only three words I want to hear from you...

"I love you."

I'll stick you a little; enough to your oxygen away. Then I'll set you on fire, 'cause I'm on fire and I'm with you alone.