This Morning I Tried...

...it had a bigger impact on me than I ever thought it would. This is a message to you, because you are worth every minute of my time.

I love you.

WOMAD Checklist

- 2 double barrelled Red Mickey Mouses

- 30 cigarettes

- 2 and a half hours worth of shesha

- 7 spliffs

- "Bantah!"

- "Buttscratcher!"

- "Skins" camp

- 'Roxy Wants Anal'

- Reassurance

- Arrogance

- Hypocrisy

- Sexual references

- Sun and Rain

- Weetos

- Noodles

- Skanking

- Reggae

- Elliott

- Going out in the evening and having a great night

- Lack of self-approval

- Provisional comedy

- Backstabbing

- Sexy tent lady

- Gabby Young

- Shallow betting

We're all in this together, and I won't get out alive.

Day 6 - A Stranger

I remember fondly when I was five years old I was on a train to Wolverhampton with my Mother to visit my Aunt and Uncle on my Mum's side of the family for a week. The train tracks were flooded and we were standing up in a cramped train, since that all the seats were taken. A man behind me offered me some chocolates that he saved for his relative's children, and gave them to me since I was tired and hungry. This man's generosity never left my memory and his kindness and thoughtfulness will never leave me either. I'd like to say thank you so much for looking after me and thinking about other people. Selfless people are hard to come by nowadays, and I'll never forget this memory.

If I ever got to say one thing to you, it would be thank you. You are a kind and gentle person, and that's something that isn't common any more. You are a lovely person and I'm sure your family think the same of you.

Day 5 - My Dreams

My dreams are not materialistic. I do not wish to be a millionaire, I don't wish to have a mansion, I don't wish to have a flash sports car. Those are aspirations, not a dream. My dream? To be remembered. For something. Anything. I wish to become a musician, and make music for the sake of making music. If being a professional musician was just a voluntary job and I didn't get paid, I'd still do it, because I have raw passion for it.

My real dream? To be happy. To be with someone who loves me, to get married, to have a child. To have the loving friends who are still to the same value twenty years down the line.

I don't care what I do, as long as I'm happy.

Day 4 - Your Closest Relative

Lauren Hunter.

I remember back in the day where I subjected her to favouritism as opposed to my other cousin Lewis, which in itself, never was anything personal; we just got on better. I really miss them childhood memories together, because they were the happiest parts of my life, which were spent with you. I remember fondly how much we used to falsely accuse Lewis of the smallest things, all the stuff that we made up and how much fun we had making them and now at adolescence to be great together, and still enjoy each other's company today when we do manage to see each other. I miss you and everyone else on your side of the family very much, and I hope I get to see you more next year when we'll both have a driver's licence, or in my case, hopefully a provisional.

You were the best friend I ever had.

(Yet Another Extremely Overdue) Day 3 - Your Parents

Mother.

You mean an awful lot to me, probably more than any other person on the planet. You've always given me inspiration when I've felt down, and I know I can talk to you about almost anything and for you to be civil about it. You've provided me well in the last five years when you left your old boyfriend's house to go live in our own place, and despite moving house so many times in the last five years, you've always had us somewhere to stay, and you've always been able to maintain a roof over our heads, even if you have taken up one full time and two part time jobs in the process. I'm very lucky to have a mother like you.

Father.

I don't see you as much as I would like to, but I suppose in some sort of fashion that it's a good thing. You're usually at work all the time which is the main reason, but sometimes I worry about you. I worry that when Nan's gone you won't be able to handle your money, and that everything'll go wrong for you, but hopefully, I'm the one who's wrong about this. You've helped me build my character, for when I was just a shy, naive and solitary boy, to now a more self-confident, wise and social person. There's not too much that I can take away from our relationship, but what I can I'm thankful for.

If it was never for you two, I'd still be the boy I once knew. I'm thankful now that everyone knows me as the boy everyone now knows.

(A Very Overdue) Day 2 - My Crush

Darcey Tromans.

She is basically my world. We may not see each other as oftern as we'd like to, but she means an awful lot to me. She's amazingly beautiful, and she's a lovely person. I love how she's so in tune with her atomphere and surroundings, who can take the smallest things out of life, and think big. I think we both can relate to having a similar personality as one another, which is why we get on so great. I've not been this happy with someone in a long time, and it's nice to finally feel like the amount of love you give out, is the same that's given in return. I could write all day about how amazing you are, but I'll keep it short before I start boring everyone else.

I love you.