Day 1 - My Best Friend

I have a few, so I shall mention all of you.

Nekel Delisser.

You are quite possibly my best friend. We have a Turk and JD type of relationship, and it's something that I've never had before. I've never had a true best friend, one of which I felt 100% comftable around, one that I could tell everything to, someone who will back me up in a fight and speaks words of good advice. Some of your morals are wrong, but none of us are perfect. I love our private jokes and how we make something out of nothing. We're basically opposites; I'm white, you're black, I listen to indie, dubstep and metal, you listen to grime, gangster rap and bassline. I wear jeans, you wear tracksuits. This aside, I can say, opposites do attract, and you are my favourite person.

Rebecca Robertson.

We've drifted. Ever since Andrew, we've drifted. Some of that was jealousy, some of that is because I felt somewhat neglected at times, some it is because I'm not sure where we stand anymore. I love you to pieces, I really do and I wish I was your best friend again, but this time, for me to be a best friend back, and not just to try to impress you by being someone I'm not. I miss you. I miss you like hell. I miss what we were. True friends. Whatever happens, I just want you to know that I love you and I will never let us part. Ever.

Aidan Finucane.

You are a fucking legend. One of the best people I've ever met in my life is you. You look after me, you corrupt me, but we don't care, because we're having a good time. The times where I can drink and smoke with you and have an interesting evening is something I don't really get with anyone else. I know you'll back me in a rough situation, and I find it wrong that people judge you before they get to know you. You are a vibrant person, who always makes me happy, even when I feel like shit.

I love all three of you; you are the best friends I could ever ask for.

Then You'll Know Everything.

30 day blog challenge thing.
I'm doing it, yeah.
Then everyone can know me.

I Tried to Fly Today

Only in my dreams will I fly to you, with my wings streched as far as they can.
It hurts.
Alot.

I tired, and I died.

"Too Much Jail, Not Enough Bait"

So, a lot has changed since we last met, allow me to fill you in.

Well, one thing I'm definitely happy about is realising how much I've achived in the last couple of weeks. From what was just fantasy, is now reality.

To quote Chrisopher Reeve: "So many of our dreams at first seem impossible, then they seem improbable, and then, when we summon the will, they soon become inevitable."

Only one really good thing as happened to me, and to be perfectly honest, I'm not letting that thing go without my life.

I'm petrified of the future, since I'm greatly unprepared for it. There are parts of which I could've done more in than others, but some of this is unchangable now; my idiocy a few years ago is responsable for that. However, I'm not using anything as an excuse against me trying my best, and I don't care how long it takes, or how hard I'm going to have to work, I will get where I want to be, no matter what.

I feel incredibly lucky though, I have so much to show for it. Sure, things could be better, but sometimes, it's better to have too little than too much, and I like that. I'm going to change this however, for I wish to provide a better future.

At the end of the day, no matter what you do, death always awaits. It's just good to be remembered.

Death awaits.